Ok, December is killing me. I have had tons of time to read because I’ve been sitting in hockey rinks all month waiting for tournaments and practices to finish, but have had no time to post reviews! Hopefully, January will be a good catch-up month…
June’s former best friend Delia lives a troubled life. June has always known that the girl was unhappy with her stepfather’s presence, that she abused various substances (alcohol being the least), she hopped from relationship to relationship, and she was a very good liar. But that night June, Delia, and Ryan (June’s boyfriend) hung out ended in trouble, and the two inseparable friends didn’t speak again. A year and a half later, she sees Delia’s name on her phone but doesn’t answer. Two days later, she learns of the teen’s suicide.
June may not know Delia anymore, she may not have spoken to her in well over a year, but she knows one thing. Delia would never kill herself. And certainly not in the way her death happened. It had to be murder. And that one certainty drags her down into a web of deceit and danger.
This is the story of an all-consuming friendship gone wrong. It is a fire that burned itself out, as was inevitable. Two girls from equally broken homes who look for family in each other.
I found June to be a bit weak, unsure of her own mind and own decisions, easily led. She lacked common sense. Her characterization was a bit off. 15 years old, she is quiet, shy and likes to move under the radar. She does her work in school and has a “safe” boyfriend, one that is nice to everyone. But when she starts to investigate Delia’s murder, she decides to infiltrate a drug lord’s party and search for information. Look, I’m not exactly the meek and mild type, and I sure as hell wouldn’t do that, as a teen or at my age now.
Delia, on the other hand, is the type of character that I am drawn to, even as I dislike her. She has a dark side. Oh boy, she does have a dark side. She is self-absorbed, manipulative, and domineering. As we learn more about her during June’s investigation, she appears to be sociopathic. Coming from a tough home life, she latched on to June and was the dominant player in their friendship. She demanded complete attention and loyalty, even as she slipped away without June’s knowledge for other pursuits.
The other characters worked as good foils for Delia and June, but I could never really get a solid feeling about any of them. Each one had secrets and all seemed equally inconsistent. June’s boyfriend Ryan was central to the mystery, and at first seemed beyond reproach. But then questions arose. And his version of the truth does not always add up.
The plot of the story moved around, and I found myself slightly anxious while reading. I wanted to find out what happened, and did not want it to be true. Suicide vs murder is not a new idea, and I’m not sure how original the ideas are in this reiteration. Not all questions were answered or resolved, and while the behaviour of some of the characters made sense, others’ never seemed to fully add up. Was Ryan good or bad? What about Jeremiah? Had Delia been in love with June, or just liked the control she had over her?
I can’t decide whether I loved or hated the ending. I am someone who likes to know how everything is resolved when I read the last page. I want to know what happens. Don’t leave me hanging! But no matter what, I did not see that coming. Maybe, looking back, it should have been obvious, and it probably will be to some readers.
As with the ending, I don’t know whether I liked the novel or not. It was hard to read but impossible to put down. There were inconsistencies and questions never answered. There are a lot of mature themes and scenes and is best read by the mature YA reader.
Suicide Notes from Beautiful Girls was published July 7th, 2015 by Simon Pulse.
I saw this on a used bookstore and almost bought it…would you recommend?
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I am having a hard time recommending it! It is defintiely a compelling read, but there are problems that I didn’t like. I’ve read a few other reviews, and it does seem to be a love it or hate it kind of book.
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Ok, good to know. I saw it and hadn’t read any blog reviews (only saw the GR ones), so it’s good to know how someone feels about this from my blogger buddies. So I’m skipping it.
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This story sounds super dark, which isn’t a bad thing but, ugh, isn’t it annoying when a character’s actions aren’t consistent with the personality they’ve been given in the story?
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Agreed! Takes away from what could be an interesting story. But I hate when someone acts so completely out of character.
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Argh! I hate it when books like this leave us feeling torn. Hmm. I think I’ve seen this at my library so maybe I’ll check it out someday. This was obviously a difficult book to review but you did a phenomenal job Stefanie!🤗
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Thanks! Days later, and I’m still not sure where I stand on it! Frustrating… Delia was definitely an interesting character, and I will say it is worth the read for her.
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You sound kinda conflicted about this one. Here’s to better reads in 2017.
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Here’s hoping! Happy New Year! 🙂
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It’s lovely to have so much reading time, and I’m looking forward to all those incoming reviews!
This sounds like a genuinely intriguing book, and not one that I’ll be picking up anytime soon. As curious as I am about both Delia and the book’s conclusion, the inconsistencies and lack of certainty would drive me up one wall and down another. (Side note: if you do ever determine whether you love or hate the ending, I’d love to know.)
Great review, of course!
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Still trying to figure that out… 😀 But maybe it’s not so bad – sort of a “pick your own ending” kind of book. Make everyone happy! Or not. 🙂
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Ha! Maybe I’ll have to read the book just to experience that special level of confusion with you. I’ll let you know if I do end up picking it up. 😊
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Ooh Delia’s character sounds really intriguing to me! But I am a little put off by the ending not having a firm resolution- I’m like you, I like to know how it all works out!
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Delia’s character was the best part of the novel – I love an anti-hero.
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Ah awesome- me too!!
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Interesting great review! 🙂 This book sounds dark, which I don’t mind, but characters acting off annoy me!
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It wouldn’t have been a problem if it was just supporting characters, but having the MC acting out of character kept throwing me off. That said, Delia is a great dark character.
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This sounds like the kind of book that draws you in and is hard to put down, but not necessarily because you’re ‘enjoying’ it. It’s really hard to review books like that – they can go either way depending on the reader. I got a pretty good sense of it, though, from your review. One part of me wants to know how it ended, but another part of me just says to skip it!
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That is it exactly! I couldn’t put it down, but at no time did I think “wow, I love this book!”
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